Poetry: The Pen

Again and again, I draw for the pen
But misusing the pen only brings pain
Let’s not confuse the issue at hand
I know what I am doing everytime it comes out
And everytime it comes out I begin to write
And write, and write, and write

Don’t get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with writing
We were all created to write
Infact, we all have a God given right to write
But for every line, there is a place and a time
And an appropriate season for sentences to be created

Unfortunately, these days sentences are being created anyhow
And out of their proper context for that matter
Pens being flung around left, right and centre
With the onslaught of ink destroying what’s left on the page

So please, I beg, read between the lines
The verses in this piece should not be taken for face value alone
This is much deeper, so deep you may not catch it straight away
So today I pray he opens your mind
But while your busy trying to figure out the context of this rhyme
I’m about to ask God to forgive me for the misuse of my pen
For I truly need to repent
For it is only then, he will see my heart
Which was hardened like the tip of a pen
So if the pen truly mightier than the sword
Then I literally put pen to paper
And with Jesus, I begin a new page


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(DISCLAIMER:- this is a poem about sex written from the perspective of a male)

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Gasping4Air - The Venting Series:: Blog 2 - ''You Are Not Alone''

“I’m alone with my thoughts, I'm in the dark like throw me a torch" - Nick Brewer

A line from one of the rated emcees around at the moment and with good reason too. After listening to his mix-tape ‘’Alone with my thoughts’’ (available for download here; www.sendspace.com/file/5fk3z4), it really got me thinking. What does it really mean to be alone?

Have you ever felt like you're in the midst of people, in amongst "friends", in the presence of others or in the company of loved ones - but still felt very alone? Maybe you (like me) have well over 200 contacts on your Blackberry Messenger list, but you might as well have only 10.

They say that no man is an island. If this is so, why are there days where we feel "Lost"?

If you follow me on Twitter - or are friends with me on Facebook - you may notice that I make no secret of my past struggles with depression, which has tendencies to creep in now and again. I’m not looking to gain sympathy, but simply want to encourage that one person who may be in the same place, dealing with this same pain.

It’s a shame that these days in the Christian arena, believers are forced to put on a facade of everything being okay 100% of the time - when deep down they know this isn't really the case.

Honestly speaking, I believe that there is nothing wrong with saying "I'm not in the best of moods right now" or "things could be better". The counter argument many Christians may give would link to what they call "negative confession" - but I'd rather attribute it to making an observation and stating the obvious.

My encouragement to anybody in this position or feeling this way is simple. You need to understand that you are not alone. 1Cor 10:13 says;

"No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it."

There is NOTHING (and I say nothing with all confidence and boldness) that you are going through that someone somewhere at sometime has gone through/ struggled with AND not come out of. Therefore in saying this, the first step is to honestly trust God for that "way of escape".

Secondly, if you keep yourself isolated you will feel alone. The issue I had was that a lot of the time I wanted to be left alone, and I got exactly what I wanted: I was being left alone. I would then turn around and complain that no-one cared. My advice for those of you in a similar place is to find those you love, and keep them around you - if you keep yourself to yourself, you will fall into the place where you feel friendless and forsaken. Do not get me wrong, there is nothing bad in wanting to be alone – perhaps in those times of solitude one simply wants to gather their thoughts, plan for the future or just breathe. My friend, go ahead. The point of this blog is not to become too over-dependent on people, but instead understanding ones identity in Christ.

Finally I will say this; there will be this void in your heart which you feel may never be filled. So you try everything and its dog to try and fill it; Food, sex, money, relationships, friends, power, respect, an influential job etc. Again the issue is that this void can only be filled with the Joy of Christ, the knowledge of his work for us and the grace and peace which comes from salvation.

A lot of the times we don't see this as sufficient, so we add all those other things to try and compliment Christ in filling that void. Fortunately for us, that won't work!

So in closing I will say this; as an artist that goes around encouraging and ministering unto others I must first, like David (1sam 30:6), learn how to encourage myself. I say this to encourage you. Do not fall into the trap of depending on other people for reassurance or continual affirmation.

We need to comprehend that people are fickle and can say one thing one day and another thing another day. Take courage from the Lord, surround yourself with those you trust and continue doing you in Him. It’s not easy as you will have those low days, but think of it like this;

Anytime a visitor (friend, relative, associate) comes to your house, no matter how long they stay for, they WILL leave. It maybe 9 minutes, 13 weeks or even up to a year - but remember they are only visitors; your place is not their residence.

So see depression and loneliness as an unwanted visitor which at some point will have to leave.

So here you go, here's your torch. I guess now it’s in your hands.

It’s up to you to decide to flick the switch.

Keep Breathing!

The Venting Series :: Blog 1 - ''Dear Future Wife''

Dear Future wife,

I don't ask much from you, although in reading this it may seem like
I'm about to ask for a lot. I don't consider myself to be like most
other men, but then again most other men claim not to be like most
other men, making them like most other men. But I really am one of a kind, as you'll soon see. So before we meet, take time to read - it'll
only do you a few favours. So let's go...

Dear future wife, an important note to you, I expect you to put me
first above all things. The truth is, if you esteem me above the
things which you deem as important, then you're already on the right
track. Conceited maybe? Most definitely not! Reason being, that I do consider myself to be the jealous type. So a word to the wise, keep your eyes on me.

Okay, maybe that wasn't the best way to start this letter, but I think it’s important that we set the record straight. That's the reason why a lot of relationships fail before they even start rolling; the underlying truths are ignored and left in the blocks. I'd rather we had a good start, run with endurance and attain the gold medal which awaits us at the end of this race. But anyway, back to the matter at hand.

Dear future wife, other than faithfulness, I expect nothing but commitment and devotion from you. Seeing as I did find and choose you, I feel it only befitting you give yourself in your entirety to me, and I mean to me. Not to anyone or anything else. Your heart, your mind, your soul; Your love, your time, your efforts and conversations; that which encompasses you in your fullness to be sacrificed for the one you proclaim to love. I say this because if you truly loved me indeed, you wouldn't just love me with words alone, but also in deeds.

Dear future wife, there is no way in heaven you can even attempt to call me superficial; simply because if it were to be based on looks and looks alone , you'd still be single. No doubt about it. Everybody knows you're actually not that attractive, in fact your quite ugly! (I wont even apologise for the harsh truth). But me being me, I am more than willing to look pass that and perpetually love you regardless of your dreary and wretched appearance.

I'm not asking you to slave trade away in the kitchen, an old friend named Martha used to do that for me, but she later realised that all I wanted was quality time. All I want, not need, is for you to be daily demonstrating my essential nature; namely love, towards me. I'm talking about washing my feet with your hair using a bottle of finest 'kinda love'. I'm talking about reminiscing of our meeting at the
well, before screaming to the world that you've just met the one 'kinda love'. I'm talking about that me kinda love.

So in closing, I leave you with this. It is important to know that you will mean everything to me, for you I'll be willing do anything and with you everywhere I will go. Everything I have, I have given to you; and everything I am, I am in you. You are my diamond in the dirt, whose value will only increase on the day we consummate our union. I already know who you are, as you have no choice but to answer to my call, one ring, a symbol of an unending, everlasting love. Forever at your beckons’ call, never will I be engaged.

So dear future wife from this day I take you as my bride.


Love, your father in heaven

Yahweh

Give Me A Reason

You say Jesus is real, prove him to me.... Give me a reason......

Read Between The Lines (A broken 16) – ‘’Freestyle Verse’’

Below is a freestyle verse I wrote some time ago. Read the lyric first and then follow me as I break it down so you can understand the mindset behind this simple 16 bar verse.


His glory is ever apparent
Can’t match his apparel
Apron of grace May come before, April
Wrath which is after
Depravity, starter
Salvation the main course
Sufficient so filling
No blanks, forget the seconds not needed
Our main aim, take down the minutes
Meetings, convene with the king on a regular
Talk, no cellular
Truth, no secular
Length by breath
I’m the gap, he’s the area
Eradicated debentures
Now I’m on an adventure
Journey of life
He’s the pro, I’m the amateur
Training me, that makes me a passenger
MSN messenger, passing the word
Desperate for him, maybe call me a scavenger
You’ve played the field, missed the goal
For the wrong side
Ferguson, Cappello, Bro let him manage ya







‘’His glory is ever apparent
Can’t match his apparel
Apron of grace May come before, April
Wrath which is after
Depravity, starter
Salvation the main course
Sufficient, so filling…’’

The glory of the Lord is evident to all men whether we can see it or not; and this glory which is unmistakable is what he clothes himself in. This is the Lord God in his complete might and sovereignty (Isa 6). In saying this, what he wears alone can never me matched talk less of his nature. And one of his garments is grace which he shows before the outpour of his wrath simply as a result of our sinful nature. But although we as mankind may have started with depraved natures, God still offers us a plate of salvation, sufficient to fill any appetite.



‘’…No blanks, forget the seconds not needed
Our main aim, take down the minutes
Meetings, convene with the king on a regular
Talk, no cellular
Truth, no secular…’’


As Christians, once we have been fed with this plate of salvation which he has so graciously offered and provided for us, it becomes compulsory to meet with him on a regular (prayer, fellowship, studying the word…etc). This is service, and is the least of what is expected of us. Desiring to know more of him and making it a point of duty to run to throne instead of running to the phone in our times of need.




‘’… Length by breath
I’m the gap, he’s the area
Eradicated debentures
Now I’m on an adventure
Journey of life
He’s the pro, I’m the amateur
Training me, that makes me a passenger
MSN messenger, passing the word
Desperate for him, maybe call me a scavenger
You’ve played the field, missed the goal
For the wrong side
Ferguson, Cappello, Bro let him manage ya’’


The last part of this verse simply puts us as humans into perspective with respect to God. So many times we get it twisted and think of ourselves higher than we actually should. Accrediting salvation to our own works, making ourselves look more ‘’God-like’’ and demoting God to a more ‘’man-like’’ status; failing to understand that in light of everything we need him more than He needs us. ‘’ MSN messenger, passing the word...’’ This line simply reminds us of our great commission to make the gospel known to all men reminding them that sin has a very heavy wage, and we can never pay it ‘’Eradicated debentures’’.


And this is a ‘’Broken 16’’

#MakeMeAMan - My Twitterings (pt 1)

THE OTHER DAY ON TWITTER I WAS NOTING DOWN SOME THOUGHTS ON BIBLICAL MANHOOD - HERE THEY ARE. LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK...



* You can spend hours in the gym, but how are you building your mind? - #MakeMeAMan

* Full of integrity, honour, self-less and a provider for all. - #MakeMeAMan

* To understand real manhood, Jesus Christ should be your first point of reference. - #MakeMeAMan

* In the bible, there is no such thing as adolescence. There were only boys and men. Maturity is more than age. - #MakeMeAMan

(1Cor 13:11) - #MakeMeAMan

* If you have a girlfriend but your still romancing other women. That's a no no! #MakeMeAMan

* "I refuse to be 32 making mixtapes, raving with children, two are my own" - #MakeMeAMan

* A woman is not a sexual object that can be used and played with anyhow. Women are jewels men are to love, respect and cherish. - #MakeMeAMan

Interview with Rapzilla (www.rapzilla.com)

Hey guys, check out an interview I did with american Hip Hop website Rapzilla.....